This post is in partnership with the Great Scottish Run to share my experiences, training and involvement in this years Glasgow event.
Running. It’s never been my thing. I was alway last at sports day and the one moaning at the back of the pack during cross country. I am healthy and maintain average fitness but for some reason when put against other people my confidence totally crumbles. I always blamed team sports, and being useless at them, however i’ve come to realise it is more than that. It is in every situation where it’s possible I will compare myself to others. In sports, at the gym, socially. About 2 years ago, it all got so bad that I was leaving the gym after doing three classes back to back, having burnt 2000 calories – feeling like a failure. It was then that I took to hill walking and wild swimming. I could be myself without worrying about not being good enough, there was nobody around, no competition and there were so many other factors to consider before I even began to worry about how bad I was doing.
So, 2 years on from my miserable life living and failing in the gym. I feel more educated about my body, confident in small achievements and feeling able to commit to something that could have possibly destroyed me mentally a few years ago. I signed up to the Bank of Scotland Great Scottish Run and training is underway. To ease me into this, I am doing the 10k rather than the half marathon and so far so good in terms of training. There have been a few ‘bad runs,’ the kind that feel sluggish and boring but what I’ve learnt is; even the bad ones give me a sense of accomplishment. I did that run feeling the way I felt, nobody else, just me. And that usually comes with a small and quiet sense of pride.
With a summer of travel in the pipeline, my real challenge is going to be maintaining the fitness I have just now until September. But as a new reader of running blogs, I am finding out all kinds of great ways to keep the momentum up while on the road. I’ll be documenting and sharing these over the next few months on Instagram (@ronamcmillan) if you’d like to follow the journey.
On a side note: entries for the Great Scottish Run are still open. If you’d like to sign up to any of the events head to www.greatscottishrun.com!